• Kevin Armitage

My Last First Day!

It has been a while since I have written anything for the blog, even longer since I have written about my weight loss journey. In fact it's been over a year since the crossroads post. It saddens me to say I am still at that crossroads, or maybe more truthfully, have chosen the wrong path since that post.

I started this blog in September of 2020, with the goal to use it as a tool to aide me in my weight loss journey. That date in September was supposed to be my last first day. The idea that it would be the last first day of my weight loss journey because I would eventually go on to accomplish my goals. Fast-forward to today, 18 months later and 80lbs heavier then when I wrote that post. Needless to say, it was not the last first day of my weight loss journey. So here I am, sitting and writing to you, telling myself and you, the reader, that today is going to be my last first day of my weight loss journey, all over again.

Because let's face it. I will eventually have a last first day, that being I will either be eventually successful, or this journey will end in my untimely death. I am not trying to be dramatic or edgy, that is the cold hard truth when you boil everything down. I would be lying to you, if I told you that that fact didn't scare me. If I stayed on my current path I would literally eat myself to death. Maybe not tomorrow or even 5 years from now, but there would come a day when my body would just give out. I often hear: "You are still young," "Make changes before it is too late," the issue with that is I have been hearing that for a better part of a decade now. Add another decade to my now ripe age of 30, and we are approaching not young very quickly.

Ok, now that we got the doom and gloom out of the way, let's talk how. How is this going to be my last first day? How do I plan on being successful this time, what is going to be the difference? Last week, I had a call with a sleep specialist. I had a sleep study done in late January and the doctor had finally got back to me with the results. The results were not important for the purpose of this post, but what he said about my weight is. 100% of the time when I see a medical professional, regardless of the circumstance, my weight always comes up. I don't blame them, after all my weight is probably the reason why I am seeing them, regardless of the issue my weight either caused it, or contributes to it. Anyways, when the topic of my weight came up, the doctor said this, "At your BMI (or weight) it is going to be impossible to lose weight on your own."

While the statement was harsh, he is not wrong. I have read studies about BMI (body mass index) vs the ability to lose weight and keep it off. Scientifically, the higher your BMI, the lower percentage chance you have to lose weight and keep it off. Ok, maybe not scientifically, but at least statistically, based on years of data and millions of cases at this point. So that fact remains, I cannot do this on my own, I have tried for years, and have failed over and over again.

Luckily for me, I am not in this alone! You, the reader, are with me in this battle. My friends and my family are with me in this battle. My family doctor and other doctors are with my in this battle. Finally, God is with me in this battle. Every person just mentioned, wants to see me succeed. Many of them, have offered countless ways in which they can practically help. I admit, I am stubborn and proud, often times trying to push through it on my own, but I don't need to do this on my own! It is high time I start taking up the offers of help. If I want this to be my last first day, then I need to do something different. You are that different! I need your encouragement, I need your accountability, I need your words of wisdom, I need your counsel, I need your prayer, I need your help!

So today, when I start my first day again, I do not do it alone. I do it with many people behind me, and the God of this universe along side me. Today will be my last first day! Today can also be your last first day with your struggle, it might not be weight loss, but whatever it is know that the people in your life want to see you succeed, God wants to see you succeed., I want to see you succeed. Know that you are not alone, and you don't need to fight the battle alone, reach out and reach up!

On a side note, I really want to start using this blog again. I would love to do weekly posts on Mondays about various topics with regards to this journey. Next Monday, I plan on writing about how I am starting in terms of diet and exercise. Also, I recently spoke at my church on a Sunday morning about how God can and has given me the power to overcome this and any other struggle in my life, focusing on Romans 7 & 8. If you are interested in the spiritual side of my struggle with weight loss you can listen to that sermon linked below.


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